I dont feel well tonight. I have somehow a depression this evening. It started somehow the afternoon and increases more and more over time. I guess it is because the massive lack of sleep over the weekend and the fact that my granfdather needed to go to hospital again because of his diabetis.
I just feel cold and alone tonight and would want nothing more then one of my friends here with me. Or on the phone or something. Just not needing to be here alone. But I also dont want to call them on my own... I mean... I dont want to bother them with my depression. What kind of a call would that make anyway, when I call and just sigh on the phone... would make everyone just hang off.
Anyway... I dont know why I write this. Maybe for the unrealistic hope that one of my friends reads this tonight and might call me... or just visit here to spend an hour or so with me...