Well.. things are only slowly normalizing here. I am not feeling well at all. Maybe it is because there are a lot of other problems on my shoulders these days.
The sad thing is, that some of my friends where I hoped for some bit of support simply ignored things compleately and left me alone. But on the other hand, there were new friends and so much sympathy and kindness that I never expected to come from these directions. I have no idea why or how I earned such warmth and friendship to be directed towards me. But I am so very thankful for their help, support and kind words. I am afraied, tho. I don't know exactly why.. maybe It is because I've been let down so very often and treated so badly by those I thought were friends, that I have to learn to trust friends... real friends again. But then there is this voice inside my head, asking - who is a friend.
Anyway... I don't want to sound nagging or whining. I just wanted to thank those kind voices and souls who thought of me and found the time to say some kind words who helped more then they might realize. Thank you.