... I thought that long forgotten things would not so easily come back. Today I lost a very dear and very important soul to me. I feel empty and sad inside but I can not let things happen again that cost my life and gave me scars on my body that mark me as giving up my life once. I lost too much because of someone whom I found out is good friends with the one I just lost. I can never let that one, or friends of him come close to me again out of self protection, so I had to let go.
What started out as a good day, being happy to see him again, ended as a terrible, and painful disaster. I am so sorry I did this and had to shut you out. But I can never have anyone even give the chance to hurt me like the way that other one did, years ago.
I will never forget you, nor will my heart forget the friendship we built. But I also and more painfully can not forget what the other one did to me and how he used my friends to turn against me and backstab me.