I went to a place I havent been for a while. I was watching the sundawn at a stonetower in the mountains today. Some very deep memories are connected witht his tower to me and it was hard to go there. But the whole day and yesterday I was remembering those times last year in fall and so I needed to go there - and watched the sundawn, thinking of two others...
... and now that I am home again, I dont feel better. I feel miserable tonight and noone is here to give me a hug or wrap his arms around me. Not even a friend of mine I was so much looking forward to see today was hugging me, save for the evening when he departed. I thought this week was terrible... I was wrong. The weekend is even more miserable. At least I have work tomorrow and do not need to sit around here alone...
Had a somehow tyring day today. Yet the evening was great. Had a good friend on the phone who I missed a lot ond talked with him about this and that alot. I am looking forward to hear him again tomorrow evening. We also talked about the Lion King and he didn`t know J. Earl Jones. Well, so I inserted the Lion King DVD and played a few tidbits to him. Anyway... So I will be stuck up warching LK again tonight g Anyone want to come by and wathch with me? You got about 10 minutes after this post is done to join me g But be warned. I will watch it with mighty sound tonight... mmmr... Nighty everyone.
...memories came back up today when I was at work and my unicorn popped up a notification of a birthday. Well - I thought I could avoid memories of the hurting kind about things that happened to me last year in fall. But reminded of the birthday today, I remembered those things again. It still hurts to feel that the trust I gave was throws away and hurt because of something that was a mere misunderstanding... well... anyway. Its past and doesn`t really matter anymore.
But on the other paw. I very rarely realy have a grudge against others also this time. So I wish you a happy birthday lion. I guess, if you read you know that I mean you. I hope you had a great birthday celebration today and had a lot of fun. Just wanted to tell you I thought of you.