It seems that I finally found the problem in my pcs faulty behavior. After experiencing a lot of BSoDs with the id for critical hardware failure - it seems that the failing part was detected Look at the image... the capacitor blew up and just eroded. Guess that was the reason for an unstable powersupply and henceforth the reason for failing memory and the crash of the system all the time.
So what's the deal... I guess I will have to buy a new one as it is virtually impossible to get a new MB for Rimmbus Ram modules anymore. Thus meaning I also need to buy a new GPU ( as newer boards rarely have AGP slots ) and so on... oh well... guess this will be some expensive thing to do.
Well... I am feeling a bit better today. Thos the last few days were not that well... Spent the most of the time trying to not think of anything and just going to work and then trying to hide under a blanket again. Thanks to my wonderful friends who tried to be here for me I am feeling a little bit better.
Well... what else to say... it's that day of the year again where I try to hide from the world and from the memories that seem to drown me that particular date. It nearly seems impossible to get away and finally be able to find some rest and piece somehow, when you are forced to remember everywhere you look... in the radio, in the tv, by friends, by family, by work.... and the hardest part is... none of them does it intentionally.. they all remind me by accident, hurting me deeply without even knowing. But should I tell them? I guess no. I can not change my world around me and hope for understanding from everyone to not mention the 11th anymore... so what else can I do but hide and hope that noone finds me and hope that this date passes by without others remembering it too long and forgetting about that topic again so I can be with everyone else and talk without fearing that someone might crack a "funny" joke about what happened then....
... so here passes another day this year where I sinply want to forget the whole world around me so it can not hurt me.
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