Well... what else to say... it's that day of the year again where I try to hide from the world and from the memories that seem to drown me that particular date. It nearly seems impossible to get away and finally be able to find some rest and piece somehow, when you are forced to remember everywhere you look... in the radio, in the tv, by friends, by family, by work.... and the hardest part is... none of them does it intentionally.. they all remind me by accident, hurting me deeply without even knowing. But should I tell them? I guess no. I can not change my world around me and hope for understanding from everyone to not mention the 11th anymore... so what else can I do but hide and hope that noone finds me and hope that this date passes by without others remembering it too long and forgetting about that topic again so I can be with everyone else and talk without fearing that someone might crack a "funny" joke about what happened then....
... so here passes another day this year where I sinply want to forget the whole world around me so it can not hurt me.