Oh well. I am rather mixed in feelings these days. This weekend an old scholfriends father died. I was watching the ambulance drive by my house this weekend and thought there might have been a car accident, as they were standing in the middle of the street, just a few hundret meters down the road. There were numerous people standing around and watching ( like always ) and then there came a second and third ambulance. All happened on the street in the middle of it - so I thought there was something on the streed... and so I didn't even realise it was directly in front of their house... well... yesterday I got the news from him that his father has died.
I feel empty somehow... drained of all feeling in a frightening way... It's nothing bad.. its just that I am a little confused that it doen't realy touch me in any way.... strange things. I guess I have to ponder on that for a while.